tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874468106081014037.post9003768689572594862..comments2023-04-05T03:37:54.285-07:00Comments on Nature of Grace -- Linda Elmore Teeple: Invisible Illness blog post—August 12, 2011Linda Elmore Teeplehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10992540061223759795noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874468106081014037.post-38604011732470498832014-10-03T09:54:51.743-07:002014-10-03T09:54:51.743-07:00Hi Dawn,
Awhile back, I changed my email address...Hi Dawn, <br /><br />Awhile back, I changed my email address and now have a gmail account. I did not realize that alerts regarding posts to my blog would still be going to my old email address. I am so sorry that I did not respond to your post in a timely manner. <br /><br />Dawn, I am so sorry for what you have gone through and continue to struggle with. There was a similar situation in my own hometown in which a doctor lost his license for the very same reason. To be a victim of a doctor's abuse of his physician privilege to write scripts, is to be betrayed by the very person who you trusted to provide you with ethical and medically appropriate health care. <br /><br />I have had two knee surgeries (one a replacement) and five spine surgeries, so I know what it is like to be on heavy-duty pain meds and then to have to come off of them. I hope you have found a good doctor--more likely, doctors--to oversee your medical care. <br /><br />I’m glad that you found your way to my blog and felt the camaraderie that comes with knowing that someone else understands what you are experiencing. I am just so sorry that I just now found your post. <br /><br />How are you doing now? Have you made progress, rebuilding your strength, muscles, weight and nutrition? <br /><br />It is wonderful that you found God and that you are able to give your problems to him and experience his healing presence. Chronic illness and pain brings us to our knees, to a point where only God can carry us through awful tests, procedures, surgeries on-going pain, rehab—and waiting, waiting and waiting for relief. Before each of my surgeries, I spent a lot of time in bed just talking to God and praying for others. <br /><br />I, too, feel close to God in nature—I just told someone earlier this week that nature is my cathedral. <br /><br />I hope you will respond and let me know how you are. I just discovered a box that I can check to make sure that my blog notifications go to my new email address. <br /><br />Blessings and grace,<br />LindaLinda Elmore Teeplehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10992540061223759795noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874468106081014037.post-6646588390286599462014-02-17T08:18:09.529-08:002014-02-17T08:18:09.529-08:00It was nice to read about someone who knows how I ...It was nice to read about someone who knows how I feel. Its hard. I have chronic pain that lead me to a therapist for dealing with the mental part of it. He convinced me to take narcotic pain meds. He was a well respected therapist for over 30 yrs and wrote papers on how to control your pain with them. Long story short, he was getting paid to write prescriptions for patients and ended up having to give up his license over it. Due to the meds I was unable to feel pain from other health issues like my gallbladder shoving stones in my main bile duct for yrs. It caused malnutrition and weight & muscle loss before figuring it out. Then a surgery and 3 procedures to remove the stones which I woke up on the table for twice also because of the pain meds. <br />The chronic pain was more than I could handle (I thought) back then, but the hell since then has been so much worse. I still don't digest right and the malnutrition caused a spiraling effect that I still cant come out of. I feel like im slowly dying and nobody understands. Ive been coming down from the high amounts of the narcotics for 2 yrs. Was on so much for so long its dangerous to take me off any slower. Im scared of all the pain again, its only thing that gives me a quality of life, but at same time is taking that life. <br />I know everyone gets tired of my whining, I do too, but I can't help it. Im miserable. <br />I finally found my way to God a couple yrs ago which has helped so much. I give Him my problems when I cant deal with them and He always gets me through them ♡ nature is my church, I go there to breath and take in some of the natural beauty He gave to us. <br />I appreciate reading your words. Helps to know im not alone. Sincerely;, thank you ♡ Dawn daShankhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01619436759907209330noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874468106081014037.post-80664855440865921772011-12-10T20:50:07.082-08:002011-12-10T20:50:07.082-08:00Kim, thanks for reading my blog post. I understand...Kim, thanks for reading my blog post. I understand how difficult it is to appear in public when experiencing pain and not wanting to cry. <br /><br />I identify with your comments about being by yourself and being able to just "be." And yet, it is important for us to find safe people with whom we are able to be real, and from whom we can experience "how God loves us so." <br /><br />Everything is so much harder when we're hurting and when we see no end in sight to our suffering. Being with others who know what we are experiencing "from the inside out," is very helpful. Just knowing you understand me blesses me. Thanks for being real with me, Kim.<br /><br />Christmas can be extra challenging because of the unrealistic expectation we have for a perfect Christmas--more pressure we place on ourselves to appear normal and happy. <br /><br />Thanks for sharing your thoughts, Kim. I really appreciate your response to my writing.<br /><br />LindaLinda Elmore Teeplehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10992540061223759795noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874468106081014037.post-5779138976361984842011-12-10T15:33:27.835-08:002011-12-10T15:33:27.835-08:00Hi Linda,
This is my first time on your blog site....Hi Linda,<br />This is my first time on your blog site. This morning I went to church but didn't last very long - about 10 minutes. Pain was strong, pain was upsetting me and I was close to tears. I knew I didn't have the emotional energy to pretend I was OK, and not wanting to break down in front of others, I escaped and came home. Ironically, the congregation were singing " How he loves me so" when I left.<br /><br />I note how important it is to you to appear "normal" to others. I can relate to this. What is it about an invisible illness that drives us to do this? If I was to respond to the question "how are you" truthfully every time, I imagine most people would tire of my answer or feel helpless. It doesn't help that I look well and people keep saying that I look so well! I think there is also pride in me that doesn't want to keep saying "pain continues, no change". It must be very hard for people without chronic pain to try to fathom constant pain.<br /><br />I spend a lot of time by myself at home, because coping with the physical, emotional and spiritual issues of chronic pain are tiring and by myself I can just "be". Sometimes I think that if my illness was visible in some way, it would be easier to relate to others more honestly. <br /><br />Anyway, those are my thoughts for today. Thanks for sharing yours,<br />KimAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1874468106081014037.post-65458817562977678202011-12-10T15:33:25.504-08:002011-12-10T15:33:25.504-08:00Hi Linda,
This is my first time on your blog site....Hi Linda,<br />This is my first time on your blog site. This morning I went to church but didn't last very long - about 10 minutes. Pain was strong, pain was upsetting me and I was close to tears. I knew I didn't have the emotional energy to pretend I was OK, and not wanting to break down in front of others, I escaped and came home. Ironically, the congregation were singing " How he loves me so" when I left.<br /><br />I note how important it is to you to appear "normal" to others. I can relate to this. What is it about an invisible illness that drives us to do this? If I was to respond to the question "how are you" truthfully every time, I imagine most people would tire of my answer or feel helpless. It doesn't help that I look well and people keep saying that I look so well! I think there is also pride in me that doesn't want to keep saying "pain continues, no change". It must be very hard for people without chronic pain to try to fathom constant pain.<br /><br />I spend a lot of time by myself at home, because coping with the physical, emotional and spiritual issues of chronic pain are tiring and by myself I can just "be". Sometimes I think that if my illness was visible in some way, it would be easier to relate to others more honestly. <br /><br />Anyway, those are my thoughts for today. Thanks for sharing yours,<br />KimAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com